<h1>This Morning</h1>

This morning was something.
A little snow

lay on the ground.

The sun floated in a clear blue sky.
The sea was blue, and blue-green,

as far as the eye could see.

Scarcely a ripple.
Calm.
I dressed and went

for a walk -- determined not to return

until I took in what Nature had to offer.

I passed close to some old, bent-over trees.

Crossed a field strewn with rocks

where snow had drifted.
Kept going

until I reached the bluff.

Where I gazed at the sea, and the sky, and

the gulls wheeling over the white beach

far below.
All lovely.
All bathed in a pure

cold light.
But, as usual, my thoughts

began to wander.
I had to will

myself to see what I was seeing

and nothing else.
I had to tell myself this is what

mattered, not the other.
(And I did see it,

for a minute or two!) For a minute or two

it crowded out the usual musings on

what was right, and what was wrong -- duty,

tender memories, thoughts of death, how I should treat

with my former wife.
All the things

I hoped would go away this morning.

The stuff I live with every day.
What

I've trampled on in order to stay alive.

But for a minute or two I did forget

myself and everything else.
I know I did.

For when I turned back i didn't know

where I was.
Until some birds rose up

from the gnarled trees.
And flew

in the direction I needed to be going.

Raymond Carver